Why I love BBC

I've had sex a number of times with black men, several of these in the company of my husband, who enjoys seeing and taking pictures of me sucking a monstrous black cock. I have a collection of favorite pictures and videos of other white females that I know or I like, sucking black men with huge cocks. I will admit it's a fetish, but perhaps those of you who don't understand the attraction that white women have for black men need an explanation.

Someone once asked me why it was that so many white and Asian women fantasize about being fucked by black men. I can't say if I'm like others, but definitely it has to do with the taboos any young girl in America who is white or Asian learns without even being conscious of it. From the moment we're little, subtle and not-so-subtle hints and proscriptions are given to us about the "danger" of black men, and how they are sexually aggressive and we need to be careful or we will be "raped." Even the most sheltered girl (and perhaps even more so the more you are sheltered...), will begin when thinking about black men to feel the fear, and thus the excitement that comes with fear.

It's that physical, visceral sense of excitement and fear that is unconscious and uncontrollable which I think accounts for the sexual attraction. It's not just the breaking of taboos and transgressing social norms--the mundane and common source of so many sexual fantasies and fetishes. There is something extra powerful about the web of representations and images of black men as rapists and violent sexual monsters that leads to the excitement.

Is it racist? Utterly. And so any white woman who has a conscience must question her own ethics in playing out her fantasies, but in other ways the primal nature of fear and excitement, its very irrationality, shifts sexuality into a different kind of existence from morality as a set of choices and commitments. And so how does one respond?

I respond by embracing the fear, embracing the fetish for black men as dangerous sexual beings. I want to be fucked by a black man. I want to suck his big black cock. And hopefully I do it well enough that whoever is on the receiving end enjoys it. And if a black man has a daddy little white girl fetish and fucks me that much harder because I represent a prime and proper white society fantasy, then maybe we both get some pleasure at least out of these larger structures of fear and hate that I can't control. It's not very empowering, and perhaps even deluded, but pleasure is often fucked up...

Are we the only couple who likes to see videos of interracial sex between black men and white women? We can't be, because why would there be such a demand for these videos (there are so many!)?

One of our mutual fantasies is for my husband to be tied helpless in a chair while a tall black man with a cock the size of a small baseball bat fucks me in every way--choking me by shoving it down my throat, and alternating splitting me open by ramming it into my pussy and ass. We have a humongous black dildo (about 18 inches long and almost four inches wide) that we bought at a gay sex shop that we often use in our fantasy, and a number of favorite porn videos to watch to get us in the mood.

I use my huge 18 inch black plastic dong for this, so that I can feel what it would be like to be torn open by a monstrous cock. I pound the huge dildo in and out until I scream with an orgasm that mingles pain and pleasure. I often times fantasy about a group of big black males fucking me like a small rag doll being shoved back and forth and tossed between their huge hard black cocks.

I love to be fucked by black men. But I also imagine their rough violent hardness softened by the, the black beast who I longs to make me his little white cum slut and tame me into being their little white submissive sex slut...